Well, hello there. Yes, it has been awhile since I've posted about attaining "the awesome." Don't get me wrong, I have had a load of posts in my head but for some inexcusable reason, there they remained. Here I am. I have returned to explore my journey to better mental, physical, spiritual, metaphysical (huh?) and social health. I hate resolutions because one of my problems with getting to reach awesome is my inability to follow through and finish a task. I am easily distracted by shiny objects. But becoming wicked awesome is not a resolution. It is my promise myself to make my life and those lives around me better. I will break it down.
Physical Health: At this point, I weigh more than I ever have in my entire life, not including my pregnancy. This is not good for several reasons. First, I have numerous pretty pretty clothes which don't fit over my bum...and hips and chest and arms and oh shut up. You get the point. What a huge waste. Plus, my cardiovascular fitness and strength are pretty pathetic. In order to be able to chase around Mr. Awesome (the son,) I need to get my arse in gear and find me some fitness.
Further more, I have been getting sick. And not just sick, like here is a cold and BAM, sinuses, meet bacterial infection, bacterial infection, meet my sinuses. I feel run down, tired, gross, and older than my stated age. This is not good.
Okay, then, what I have done? I have a workout buddy who is meeting me at the Y four days a week for Zumba, step, swimming, and some weight training thrown in for laughs. I say laughs because think of a T. Rex and that is basically my physique. Ridiculously big and strong legs with sad wussy arms. I am taking prenatal vitamins again and eating more whole foods in the hopes a better diet will not only help me lose weight but make me better at fighting off infection. Oh yeah, and I am doing the online Weight Watchers Program.
Mental Health: I am a pessimistic sarcastic Sometimes that is okay but usually it is not. My independent studies have shown that if I tell myself that "TODAY WILL BE F*CKING AWESOME!" it is. It is not fool proof but smiling, refusing to think everything is going to hell in a hand basket, and not assuming everyone is a jerk seems to make a difference. No, I don't actually think everyone is a jerk but in my field of work, that tends to be the rule, not the exception. There I go, making negative assumptions. Again, this is a work in progress.
Spiritual Health: Basically, I want to find my personal grace. I am not your traditional go to church, praypraypray, have a cookie and wine at the end and go home type of girl. I mean, I can do that from time to time but it is not really me. I want to believe that there is a guiding force which wants everyone to be awesome and it's possible and it is up to us to do it. So, yeah, I am putting away my crystals now...
Metaphysical Health: Just kidding. I'm not that smart to discuss that.
Social Health: What does this even mean? Well, let's start with friendships. I want to be a better friend. I want to be less judgemental. I want to be supportive, loving, and kind. I suppose I am all of those but sometimes, I can feel jealous or get annoyed to easily at my friends. That's okay sometimes, I suppose but I need to be careful not to let those feelings get the best of me. I want to be more open to more friendships and nurture the ones I have.
So this is where I start. Most likely, this blog will not involve my twelve steps to wicked awesomeness. Are there twelve steps? More like eleventy THOUSAND. But this gives you an idea of what is going on, what is motivating me these days, and hopefully, you will stick around through this wacky journey o' mine.